Why can't i get my head in to this. I want to feel healthy and happier but I can't seem to get myself to do it. I sabotage myself.
I need to work out how to fix my head.
I started back on the online weight watchers again.
I want to feel happy again. I am scared. So scared to blog though. I let it all out years ago in my other blog and had so many followers and I lost a lot but then one person ruined it for me. Or I let the person ruin it for me.
I also lost the weight when I was working part time. I am working 40 hours a week and travel a lot for work that it is a whole different story.
I keep on making excuses for everything. I used to go to the gym and be in a group that met twice a week. I used to blog every day and I had lots of blogger friends and felt like my world was fantastic and then it all went to custard and now I am scared to blog and I have put on most of the weight I lost.
I realise I need to lose this weight.
I realise I need to have support.
I realise I have to stop eating junk
I realise I have to track my food
I realise I have to do exercise
I realise I need to support in return.
I realise that it is me stopping me.
I need a support friend..... anyone want to be mine?
WEIGH IN - sunday 25 September 2016
Starting weight today: 145 kgs (319 lbs)...............................................................................................
1st Goal: 140 kgs (308 lbs)
2nd Goal: 135 kgs (297 lbs)
3rd Goal: 130 kgs (286 lbs)
4th Goal: 125 kgs (275 lbs)
5th Goal: 120 kgs (264 lbs)
6th Goal: 115 kgs (253 lbs)
7th Goal: 110 kgs (242 lbs)
8th Goal: 105 kgs (231 lbs)
9th Goal: 100 kgs (220 lbs)
10th Goal: 95 kgs (209 lbs)